Heart Felt Message From Julie Jewels Smoot

 

My book tells more then just what happened to me. It’s my healing path. It’s me realizing that I can speak my truth, feel my feelings, express my feelings and heal from everything that has happened to me. It’s me stepping into to coming back into my body. It’s how I have healed and continue to heal. It’s me realizing that I am an empowered Warrior and I not be silenced. It’s me becoming visible and not afraid to be seen for who I am. It’s a book that is meant to be a guide to help survivors, doctor, nurses, nurse practitioners, law enforcement officers, professors, psychiatrists, psychologists, social workers.  It’s about me stepping into my purpose and taking all of the pain I feel to help society to understand.

 

Mighty Blue Heron

 

 

First time I saw you,

I was kayaking on a lake

I paddled closer to

 see what you were,

You looked prehistoric to me,

You were camouflaged

on the tree branch

That had fallen into the water,

I looked at you and saw

 how magnificent you are,

I paddled even closer to you

 and you took flight,

I watched you fly across the lake

with your mighty wings.

I noticed the blue

feathers you had,

I was amazed with your

 power and beauty.

The second time I saw you,

I was kayaking down

 the Potomac River

You moved your

head and watched me

Paddle down the river,

I watched you take

 flight and you flew

Past me on the river,

Once again I am in

awe of your beauty

You helped me to know

 that I had some one

Watching out for me

and I was not alone

On my healing journey.

I saw you three times

this past year,

You were my spirit guide as I

Was an on spiritual journey,

You let me know

 that I was not alone,

You were present while I

was coming home into my body,

You helped me to know

 that I am not alone

and reminded me of the beauty

That is in nature and in me.

You helped me to feel safe to feel.

Climbing Mountain

 

There is a huge mountain in front of me,

I start climbing it,

The mountain in front of me seems gigantic and impossible to climb,

I start climbing the mountain in front of me,

I find a place to grip,

Digg my fingers into the rock,

Find a place to put my feet so that I can climb higher and higher,

At times feel like I am going to fall off the mountain,

At times, this task feels impossible since there is so much pain inside,

so many emotions,

body sensations,

flashbacks

nightmares

At times all I can do is cry,

Scream,

tear things apart,

sleep,

It’s taking everything I have to climb this mountain,

It’s taking so much to face all of the demons inside of me,

It taking so much to heal from so much trauma,

The mountain before me seems impossible to climb,

There are other people higher on the mountain that reach out their hand to me

I grab their hand and know that I do not have to do this allow,

When I feel like quitting they tell me I can’t,

They tell me that they are there for me,

Do not give up,

It’s okay to feel your feelings,

It’s okay to allow the tears to come out,

It’s okay to be enraged,

It’s okay to rest,

Remember to do self-care,

I know you are feeling so much pain,

It’s okay to say, I am exhausted,

Be there for me and allow another to hold you on this journey of healing,

I listen to them and allow them to be there for me,

The tears coming from my eyes like waterfalls cleansing my pain and soul,

I will get through this.

It’s one day a time,

Sometimes one minute at a time,

Sometime one second at a time,

Know that you are loved,

That you are not allow,

You can lean on me,

You can call me anytime,

I am there and I will listen to what you have to say,

I believe you,

I support you,

I am a Warrior,

I am strong.

It’s going to be alright.

I will get to the top.

I will be free .

 

Heart Chakra

 

Settling into Reiki slumber,

I begin to breathe deeply,

I sense my spirit guides and teachers all around me,

They surrounding me in healing white light,

That touches very part of my being,

Breathing in deeper into my lungs,

I begin to connect to my heart center,

I become aware of the compassion they have for

me and realize they are there for me,

They want me to have compassion for myself,

They want me to feel my feelings,

To allow the tears to come out,

Breathing out I parts of my body are shaking,

My teachers and spirit guides tell me that I am safe,

I am releasing trauma, grief, anger, body memories, tears

And feeling connected to myself and heart center for the first time,

Breathe deeply again to sense the white healing light surrounding me,

I feel all of the love, compassion, empathy and support,

I begin to let go of past betrayals, hurts,

forgive myself and others,

I am connecting to my Divine spirit,

Raising my energy level, and realizing

That I am a healer.