Nothing Done


I responded to his email on Navy together we served,

Thinking that if I got him to admit to raping me,

That they would have to do something about it,

He straight up admitted to raping me,

He said, “You an ugly woman and I do not know why I even messed with you. Taking a woman is something that I am down with. So you remember how….lol…”

Called NCIS and asked to speak to special agent,

Case was reopened again,

None of this mattered to the Special Agent

Was told we have to investigate you,

Know who all you slept with,

About any other sexual assault reports you have made,

It does not matter what he said in his email,


So once again they do nothing about

rape even when they have it in black and white,

Once again, I am told that I am nothing

but an object that deserves to be raped,

So tired,

So enraged,

So hurt,

So betrayed,

So fed up

So sick of, “We do not care.”

So sick of oh you are just a woman.

and well that means that you were born to be raped,

So sick of he had every right to rape you,

So sick of the laws do not apply to you,

So sick of it’s fine that I was emotionally abused, retaliated against, and my career was ruined,

We do not care that the rapist

straight up admitted to raping you.

We do not care that he said, “So

you remember how…lol…taking a

woman is something that

I down with. You are such an

ugly woman I do not even

know why I messed with you.

So sick of the laws and

UCMJ do not apply to me,

But we will protect, promote,

a rapist at all costs and allow

him to rape more women

over and over and over and

over and over again.

Someone tell me where Honor,

Courage, Commitment, Duty,

Country, Shipmate comes into

protecting rapists that commit a heinous crime,

That changes the victim FOREVER!!!



What is Power

Power is found in choice.

Power is found in joy.

Power is found strength.

Power is found in loving yourself and others.

Power is found in compassion for oneself and others.

Power is found in being with community and power with.

Power is allowing yourself to observe without reacting.

Power is allowing your authentic self to be seen.

Power is in the ability to come back into your body.

Power is found in breathing deeply and being rooted.

Power is found is sharing what one senses.

Power is found in laughter.

Power is found in truly believing in oneself.

Power is being able to tell your truth even when your voice is shaking.

Power is found in being able to truly be

there for another to listen to what he or she has to say.

Power is found in feeling to heal.

Power is found in releasing emotions.

Power is drawing the line and saying enough is enough.

Power is taking a stand against what is right and wrong.

Power is advocating to make a change in this world.

Power is advocating for those that have not found their voice yet.

Power is the ability to choose to help others.

Power is saying this is not how my story is going to end.

Power is using one’s past to transform into what you what to be.

What is being Brave

One of my friends looked at me

And told me, “When are you going to know that

You are brave? You are facing the demons that

Are deep inside of you. You have shared your

Truth with the world. You have advocated for

Others. That is being brave. Now the best thing, you

Can do is to look in the mirror and

say I love you. Also, to let go of the pain

you are feeling, start to love yourself, let

the tears come out and love yourself. You need to realize

how brave you are. You are valuable to the people

you know. When are you going to start to believe it yourself?

Heal your heart one day at a time, one tear

at a time, and one moment at a time.

It’s okay to be real with yourself and honest about

What you are really feeling deep inside. Let yourself

Feel it.”

Being brave is facing the demons and healing yourself.

Being brave is allowing yourself to truly love yourself.

Being brave is knowing that your worth comes from within yourself.