Nothing Done

 

I responded to his email on Navy together we served,

Thinking that if I got him to admit to raping me,

That they would have to do something about it,

He straight up admitted to raping me,

He said, “You an ugly woman and I do not know why I even messed with you. Taking a woman is something that I am down with. So you remember how….lol…”

Called NCIS and asked to speak to special agent,

Case was reopened again,

None of this mattered to the Special Agent

Was told we have to investigate you,

Know who all you slept with,

About any other sexual assault reports you have made,

It does not matter what he said in his email,

 

So once again they do nothing about

rape even when they have it in black and white,

Once again, I am told that I am nothing

but an object that deserves to be raped,

So tired,

So enraged,

So hurt,

So betrayed,

So fed up

So sick of, “We do not care.”

So sick of oh you are just a woman.

and well that means that you were born to be raped,

So sick of he had every right to rape you,

So sick of the laws do not apply to you,

So sick of it’s fine that I was emotionally abused, retaliated against, and my career was ruined,

We do not care that the rapist

straight up admitted to raping you.

We do not care that he said, “So

you remember how…lol…taking a

woman is something that

I down with. You are such an

ugly woman I do not even

know why I messed with you.

So sick of the laws and

UCMJ do not apply to me,

But we will protect, promote,

a rapist at all costs and allow

him to rape more women

over and over and over and

over and over again.

Someone tell me where Honor,

Courage, Commitment, Duty,

Country, Shipmate comes into

protecting rapists that commit a heinous crime,

That changes the victim FOREVER!!!

 

 

Sensing Ankle

I know you are there,
when you scream so loud,
I am paying attention to you,
When the pain starts,
It takes me back to when,
I fell down the stairs at UC
And broke you,
You remind me of all of
The pain from UC,
Somehow all of the trauma
Has gotten held in you,
Now I touch you,
I feel you throbbing with pain,
I feel the tears well up inside of me,
I feel the nightmares and flashbacks
Coming to the surface,

I feel the anger about what happened
That night in the dorm room,
I know there is still pain that I have
To express,
I know there are things
That I still need to talk about,
I know that I have anger from
The police doing nothing,

I know that my life changed forever

On October 17, 1997,
I know there are many
Let tears that need to come out,
You let me know that I need to
Forgive myself for drinking,
I did not ask for what happened,
It’s not my fault what they did to me.
I did not choose any thing that happened
That night,

I have taken time to stay off of you,
I have allowed myself to cry
I have told you that I love you
And hear what you are telling me
Please stop hurting.
I am protecting you now.
I am listening to you now.