A slow dive into the depths of the ocean,
Dove deep inside of myself to learn about myself,
Learned how to have a relationship with the music, class and myself.
Learned how to communicate what was feeling honestly
with another person.
Learned to be intimate with the 52 moves of Nia,
Class and myself.
Dove a little bit deeper into my mind and uncovered the
truth about me
Allowed myself to feel, expressed what
I was feeling,
Allowed the tears to come out
Allowed others to be there for me.
I went through a transformation at Blue Belt.
Learned that I feel the safest laying on the floor,
Learned to take care of myself,
Learned that doing my best varies from day to day,
Learned to love myself and to see the jewel that is inside.
Learned that I have a gift for finding music that
creates magic and healing.
Learned that I can be there for others and that I am a
Learned that it is my birth right to take up space.
It’s my birth right to feel what I feel
It’s my birthright to heal
and to help others to heal.
It’s my choice
I choose to live my life.
I choose to love myself.
I choose to help others to heal.
I choose to take a stand against what is right and wrong.
I choose to live in the present moment.
I am a blue Jewel.
As I have continued on my healing journey, one thing that I have had to learn is self care. I used to believe that I was not worthy of self care since I saw myself as dirty, worthless and useless. Once that view of myself changed, I started making little changes to take better care of myself. Self care first started by drinking more water. Then that expanded to getting a massage. My self-esteem started coming back. I started going to therapy where I learned and accepted that I was a worth while human being that deserved to be loved by myself. Soon I was getting massages two times a month, using essential oils to help myself calm down and started to realize that I could have self-compassion.
The next step I took in self care was finding my way to Nia and taking white belt. This is where I learned to love my body and life. My trainer suggested I go to see her friend who did Reiki Jin Kei Do. I did what she suggested and made an appointment. Through Reiki, I learned that I can connect to my body more and more. My energy level became higher and more self care started. Next thing, I know I am eating better, spending time in nature, dancing, being with friends, listening to music, choreographing dance routines, using essential oils, candles, healing stones, crystal singing bowls, take espom salt baths, meditation, earthing, massages, counseling and getting acupuncture treatments. I had to teach myself that I could love myself again and now I practice self care every day.